it's endearing and not that i want to say something more i just want to know if what she said was true i don't know her so i figure it would be shitty to take her word fully and judge you when i barely know you either
well to begin i'd like to know what she said, seeing as i am not privy to your conversations. i do know her basic comments so i can at least say that no, i am not trying to destroy the world. i know of her in my time but haven't met her myself, so whatever happened to have her react this way is a mystery to me.
uhhh she mentioned your disc power and how it could be used for evil but i kind of figured that anyway (no offense) yeah it was basically the world thing why did she think that? reference: i have experience with trying to end the world. im not gonna judge you because i know you don't just wake up one day and decide you're gonna kill everyone
well yes, i believe most powers can be used for evil. mine in particular could easily take from people what should not be taken. it is not something i do lightly, i assure you. only if it is the sole option. but i will not lie and say my hand has never been forced in some way.
i appreciate you candor and honestly, archie, i cannot say. i have always dreamed of helping people find happiness, as terribly trite as that sounds. i hope in the future it is the same.
how do you feel about being brought here, archie? forgive me for changing the subject, we can return if you wish I simply I've given this matter a great deal of thought. I'd like to know how a man who's been here longer feels.
bad i know that's a simple answer but just bad i had responsibilities back home that i've unwillingly abandoned people i needed to make things right with i'm not sure i'll ever see again i have to atone for what i did in my own world here means nothing
i wouldn't call it simple, and it is a reasonable response. yet you seem to move forward each day, to make what you can out of this. can you really say here means nothing?
it's one step forward and five back i keep getting knocked back by stupid stuff that shouldn't bother me but does because i can't let it go maybe because i've been relatively lucky in life and never really experienced trauma until what i did which only feels worse because it's self-inflicted, and what about all the people i dragged into it with me? i need to get over my own problems to properly atone but i can't because i'm too selfish, perhaps i'm not sure what the reason is
[because you are genuinely traumatised by the guilt and what happened, idiot.]
archie, i hope you can forgive me for being overbearing in anyway with this but i have seen this before in my work. i do not believe you are selfish, or that 'getting over' your issues will help you 'atone.' of course i do not know what you have done and how you truly feel, so take what i say with a grain of salt.
trauma and hardship does not pass judgment. it does not punish or seek out those it feels deserve it. you treat yourself like your pain is deserved, seemingly embrace it in some way even if you do not see it yourself, and then get frustrated when you are still too burdened by it to move forward clearly. you cannot atone, if you truly must, if you continue to let these wounds fester. that is not atonement, it is a symptom of your trauma.
i apologize again if i come off heavy handed. i do care for your wellbeing, even if we do not know each other well.
believe me pooch if anyone deserves to suffer for what they did its me the point is i gotta stop thinking about myself like that when its all self inflicted
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unforgivable...
of course, archie. is there something in particular you'd like to say?
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and not that i want to say something
more i just want to know if what she said was true
i don't know her so i figure it would be shitty to take her word fully and judge you when i barely know you either
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i do know her basic comments so i can at least say that no, i am not trying to destroy the world.
i know of her in my time but haven't met her myself, so whatever happened to have her react this way is a mystery to me.
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yeah it was basically the world thing
why did she think that?
reference: i have experience with trying to end the world. im not gonna judge you because i know you don't just wake up one day and decide you're gonna kill everyone
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mine in particular could easily take from people what should not be taken.
it is not something i do lightly, i assure you. only if it is the sole option.
but i will not lie and say my hand has never been forced in some way.
i appreciate you candor and honestly, archie, i cannot say.
i have always dreamed of helping people find happiness, as terribly trite as that sounds.
i hope in the future it is the same.
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forgive me for changing the subject, we can return if you wish I simply
I've given this matter a great deal of thought.
I'd like to know how a man who's been here longer feels.
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i know that's a simple answer but
just bad
i had responsibilities back home that i've unwillingly abandoned
people i needed to make things right with i'm not sure i'll ever see again
i have to atone for what i did in my own world
here means nothing
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yet you seem to move forward each day, to make what you can out of this.
can you really say here means nothing?
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i keep getting knocked back by stupid stuff that shouldn't bother me but does because i can't let it go
maybe because i've been relatively lucky in life and never really experienced trauma until what i did
which only feels worse because it's self-inflicted, and what about all the people i dragged into it with me?
i need to get over my own problems to properly atone but i can't
because i'm too selfish, perhaps
i'm not sure what the reason is
[because you are genuinely traumatised by the guilt and what happened, idiot.]
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i do not believe you are selfish, or that 'getting over' your issues will help you 'atone.'
of course i do not know what you have done and how you truly feel, so take what i say with a grain of salt.
trauma and hardship does not pass judgment. it does not punish or seek out those it feels deserve it.
you treat yourself like your pain is deserved, seemingly embrace it in some way even if you do not see it yourself, and then get frustrated when you are still too burdened by it to move forward clearly.
you cannot atone, if you truly must, if you continue to let these wounds fester. that is not atonement, it is a symptom of your trauma.
i apologize again if i come off heavy handed. i do care for your wellbeing, even if we do not know each other well.
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the point is i gotta stop thinking about myself like that when its all self inflicted
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so
yes