how do you feel about being brought here, archie? forgive me for changing the subject, we can return if you wish I simply I've given this matter a great deal of thought. I'd like to know how a man who's been here longer feels.
bad i know that's a simple answer but just bad i had responsibilities back home that i've unwillingly abandoned people i needed to make things right with i'm not sure i'll ever see again i have to atone for what i did in my own world here means nothing
i wouldn't call it simple, and it is a reasonable response. yet you seem to move forward each day, to make what you can out of this. can you really say here means nothing?
it's one step forward and five back i keep getting knocked back by stupid stuff that shouldn't bother me but does because i can't let it go maybe because i've been relatively lucky in life and never really experienced trauma until what i did which only feels worse because it's self-inflicted, and what about all the people i dragged into it with me? i need to get over my own problems to properly atone but i can't because i'm too selfish, perhaps i'm not sure what the reason is
[because you are genuinely traumatised by the guilt and what happened, idiot.]
archie, i hope you can forgive me for being overbearing in anyway with this but i have seen this before in my work. i do not believe you are selfish, or that 'getting over' your issues will help you 'atone.' of course i do not know what you have done and how you truly feel, so take what i say with a grain of salt.
trauma and hardship does not pass judgment. it does not punish or seek out those it feels deserve it. you treat yourself like your pain is deserved, seemingly embrace it in some way even if you do not see it yourself, and then get frustrated when you are still too burdened by it to move forward clearly. you cannot atone, if you truly must, if you continue to let these wounds fester. that is not atonement, it is a symptom of your trauma.
i apologize again if i come off heavy handed. i do care for your wellbeing, even if we do not know each other well.
believe me pooch if anyone deserves to suffer for what they did its me the point is i gotta stop thinking about myself like that when its all self inflicted
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forgive me for changing the subject, we can return if you wish I simply
I've given this matter a great deal of thought.
I'd like to know how a man who's been here longer feels.
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i know that's a simple answer but
just bad
i had responsibilities back home that i've unwillingly abandoned
people i needed to make things right with i'm not sure i'll ever see again
i have to atone for what i did in my own world
here means nothing
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yet you seem to move forward each day, to make what you can out of this.
can you really say here means nothing?
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i keep getting knocked back by stupid stuff that shouldn't bother me but does because i can't let it go
maybe because i've been relatively lucky in life and never really experienced trauma until what i did
which only feels worse because it's self-inflicted, and what about all the people i dragged into it with me?
i need to get over my own problems to properly atone but i can't
because i'm too selfish, perhaps
i'm not sure what the reason is
[because you are genuinely traumatised by the guilt and what happened, idiot.]
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i do not believe you are selfish, or that 'getting over' your issues will help you 'atone.'
of course i do not know what you have done and how you truly feel, so take what i say with a grain of salt.
trauma and hardship does not pass judgment. it does not punish or seek out those it feels deserve it.
you treat yourself like your pain is deserved, seemingly embrace it in some way even if you do not see it yourself, and then get frustrated when you are still too burdened by it to move forward clearly.
you cannot atone, if you truly must, if you continue to let these wounds fester. that is not atonement, it is a symptom of your trauma.
i apologize again if i come off heavy handed. i do care for your wellbeing, even if we do not know each other well.
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the point is i gotta stop thinking about myself like that when its all self inflicted
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so
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