archie, i hope you can forgive me for being overbearing in anyway with this but i have seen this before in my work. i do not believe you are selfish, or that 'getting over' your issues will help you 'atone.' of course i do not know what you have done and how you truly feel, so take what i say with a grain of salt.
trauma and hardship does not pass judgment. it does not punish or seek out those it feels deserve it. you treat yourself like your pain is deserved, seemingly embrace it in some way even if you do not see it yourself, and then get frustrated when you are still too burdened by it to move forward clearly. you cannot atone, if you truly must, if you continue to let these wounds fester. that is not atonement, it is a symptom of your trauma.
i apologize again if i come off heavy handed. i do care for your wellbeing, even if we do not know each other well.
believe me pooch if anyone deserves to suffer for what they did its me the point is i gotta stop thinking about myself like that when its all self inflicted
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i do not believe you are selfish, or that 'getting over' your issues will help you 'atone.'
of course i do not know what you have done and how you truly feel, so take what i say with a grain of salt.
trauma and hardship does not pass judgment. it does not punish or seek out those it feels deserve it.
you treat yourself like your pain is deserved, seemingly embrace it in some way even if you do not see it yourself, and then get frustrated when you are still too burdened by it to move forward clearly.
you cannot atone, if you truly must, if you continue to let these wounds fester. that is not atonement, it is a symptom of your trauma.
i apologize again if i come off heavy handed. i do care for your wellbeing, even if we do not know each other well.
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the point is i gotta stop thinking about myself like that when its all self inflicted
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